Happy first birthday, sweet baby Sadie!!!!! I can't believe it has been a year. Wow. My kids' birthdays are always bittersweet for me. Anyone who knows me well knows that I am extremely sentimental. I know birthdays are a time to celebrate and look back on a wonderful year of milestones. And I do celebrate. But I also look back and miss the sweet newborn days, the tiny person who slept on my chest so contentedly with milk dribbling down her chin. I know she will never be this small again and I get super emotional about it. I've already cried twice today (one unrelated to Sadie growing up but we'll get to that in a minute). I know, I know- buck up, woman. I'm trying. Anyway, I wanted to share a little slideshow of her throughout the year so you can see how she has grown. I think it is plain to see that she is the cutest girl on the planet. But I think I might be biased.
The day started off nicely. Sadie woke up, I fed her (can you believe I have now officially nursed for a year?!?!!), we went downstairs and I started making Norwegian waffles, Sadie's favorite. While I tinkered around in the kitchen Sadie explored her new favorite playground, my lazy susan.

Then we all had a nice big breakfast of waffles and orange juice. We listened to "Sexy Sadie" while we ate and Sadie danced along. That girl loves a good beat.

Then my mom called to wish Sadie a happy birthday before she had to go to work. She sang the happy birthday song over the phone, and Sadie licked it in approval. After we hung up, I went out to the dining room to clean up the rest of the breakfast dishes and that is when the horror began. But first, a little background (patience, good people).
For the last several months, I have been contemplating what kind of cake to make for Sadie's birthday. In recent years I have really found joy in baking and decorating so I was really excited to try my hand at a fancy birthday cake- and a GIRLY one at that. I love pink and brown together, and a lot of her clothes and bedding are in that color scheme, so I decided to do a polka dot cake in shades of pink and brown. Yesterday I mixed the cake, baked it, cooled it, put on a crumb layer of frosting, all ready to put the fondant on. This was my first attempt at an all-fondant cake so I was a little clumsy and slow but got it done eventually (read: three and a half hours later). I was extremely pleased with how it came out, despite a few beginner's mistakes, but those were easily disguised by the proper camera angle. I decided to take some pictures of it last night once I was finished. Here's what it looked like:


Not perfect, but not terrible for a fondant virgin. I was excited to watch Sadie blow out the candle and dig in to her first taste of birthday cake.
Unfortunately, Ethan somehow had some alone time with the cake this morning. It now looks like this:

Every single one of those little polka dots is gone. Here's where that second crying fit comes in. I actually wept. WEPT. Probably four or more hours of hard work, down the tubes. I have no words. I haven't been that angry in... oh I don't even know. Up to his room he went, though it seems insufficient punishment for his crime. Sigh. I am hoping that one day I will be able to look back at this and laugh heartily. But right now... I am still in the "blinded by rage" category.
More pictures to come, after we open the presents and eat the now mutilated cake. Deep breaths...